Learning means growing

Some moments in life happen all too quickly. Once it has passed there is no way to get it back. I have found this out the hard way (repeatedly). I can’t tell you how many times my child does something I adore and then I blink and forget what just happened. It actually saddens me to think of how many missed opportunities I have throughout each and every day…chances to steal that moment away and tuck it in a safe place. I know that the chances to rock them to sleep are slipping away through my fingers regardless of how hard I try to grasp them. I know that they won’t want to hold my hand forever. I know that the times they beg for my attention are soon to be few and far between. There are times a child is striving for my attention as I am trying to get things around the house done and I get bothered by them. Then later when I replay it in my head I am tormented by the fact that I brushed away a moment so innocent, so precious, so rare. If I know that these things go away so suddenly then why is it so hard to just soak it in instead of rush it away? I have no answer, however I do know this. As a mom I have actually learned more than I have taught. I have learned to love more than I knew I could. I have learned more sports players than I could care to repeat. I know each and every star wars character of significance. I have learned how to do 10 things at once. I have learned to go days without a shower (ick). I have learned to trust God. I have learned to let things go. I have learned to sacrafice. I have learned that Rowan has more brilliant things to say at age 3 than I could ever say in my life. I have learned that Brinley has more joy and peace at one year old than I have ever experienced. I would be lying if I said that I was a great mom and I have it all together. I don’t. However, I do believe that as long as you are aware of your imperfections you will have an opportunity to change them. To me being a mom is a work in progress …I am still learning! I am just glad for the moments when I do take the time to tell them they are my world, that they can do no wrong, and that they should dream bigger than the skies, because Rowan and Brinley taught me that those moments can last forever.